What if you’re not looking for authenticity in your music, what then?
What if you’re not looking for ways to interpret and understand your own day-to-day life?
What if you understand that all music is a performance?
What if music does not feed into your sense of identity, but instead serves to distract away from it?
What if the main time you encounter music is during the Radio One Breakfast Show?
What if you are so tired after travelling and working all day, so overburdened with a surfeit of human contact, that your favourite sound to listen to when you get back home late at night to a well cold and empty house is silence?
What if the reason you like or dislike music is not because it is “manufactured’ (what’s that?) or ‘inauthentic’ (what’s that?) or gender-specific or imaginative or has that special half-second echo on the kick drum or the size of the marketing budget but whether it measures up to Bey, to Ariana, to Chicago (the musical), to Mary Poppins?
What if you view music on the same terms as television, as film, as video games?
What if you are just seeking diversion and lip service to the sort of fragile relationships you turned your back on decades ago?
What if you have long thought that Nicki Minaj is way more entertaining and imaginative and creates (I dunno) way more adventurous noise pollution than anything the more feted rock and avant-rock and doom metal and whatever genres have thrown up in decades?
What if you started believing in stars like Lauren Bacall or Katherine Hepburn again?
What if you figure it’s OK to escape to an aspiration dreamworld, long as you avoid the aspiration?
What if you understood that growing up is doing nothing of the sort?
This performance feels false to me, but so the fuck what. Maybe I just resent folk having a good time.